Convicted

I was convicted 2 summers ago. The Lord spoke to me on three occasions over one weekend. I was on a retreat with our Worship Team. We were watching videos about worship and hanging out with one another. It was very pleasant. But, when the convictions came, it cut to the heart. The conviction had nothing to do with the retreat at all. It was about my not fully releasing my kids to Him. He showed me that after I gave them to Him, I would grab them back and was utilizing my flesh (worry and attempting to build physical protection around them) instead of faith- trusting Jesus Who lives in me to have faith when I don't.

Today, Oswald Chambers, using this scripture:

"When he heard this, he became very sorrowful, for he was very rich" —Luke 18:23

OC said that that the rich young ruler "had no doubt about what Jesus had said or what it meant, and it produced in him a sorrow with no words with which to respond. Have you ever been there? Has God’s Word ever come to you, pointing out an area of your life, requiring you to yield it to Him? Maybe He has pointed out certain personal qualities, desires, and interests, or possibly relationships of your heart and mind. If so, then you have often been speechless with sorrow. The Lord will not go after you, and He will not plead with you. But every time He meets you at the place where He has pointed, He will simply repeat His words, saying, "If you really mean what you say, these are the conditions."
"Sell all that you have . . ." ( Luke 18:22 ). In other words, rid yourself before God of everything that might be considered a possession until you are a mere conscious human being standing before Him, and then give God that. That is where the battle is truly fought— in the realm of your will before God."


What God convicted me of that September weekend two years ago, I likentoday to the meaning of the scripture, "Sell all that you have." The Lord has asked me to give my children to Him. In all His Sovereignty, He will be their Shepherd/Protector - RAAH, Righteousness - TSIDKENU, Sanctifier -MEKKODISHKEM, Peace - SHALOM, COMFORTER, PROTECTOR.